the tilt-a-whirl song

no clue when i wrote this.....just found the slip of paper in my stuff...im sure it was 20-25 years ago


i wanna make luv ona tilt-a-whirl
i wanna take my special girl
i wanna ride that i wont forget
i gotta find me a circus that'll let
me make luv ona tilt-a-whirl

make whoopee until her toes curl
give her a ride she'll remember long
and never forget the tilt-a-whirl song






shut up..i know its stupid...but...its me

summer of discontent

i had a couple rough years with various mind altering substances , summer of 2001 wasted my 401k on partying($38,000) and this is one nite at my motel .....

the stars arent out
the moon's not brite
rain is saturating
my thoughts this nite

dull and dreary
is my mood
searching for the end
trying to forget
the reasons to continue
its easier to finish
without flair or fame
just fade away....
(and end the game)

walk and let the rain
drench my soul......whats left
i died last summer
so many times
felt...alone...deceived....
no purpose
not feeling enough hope
to look up to desperation

now i lay me down to weep
in a dark, soggy moss
soft on my head
hard on my heart

reach to the sky
ask God why(he wont)
take me now
in a peaceful mode
lift me from earth
this life....its load

raindrops blend with tears
and burn
and seem to then
put out the fire
that sears my thoughts

if He'd only take me now
how easy it would be
never again to face
(twisted)(morbid) reality

try as i might
i cannot win
He left me here
to awake again

miscelaneous

ok so mebbe my thing is posting on the last day of every month.......jan is workin tonite ...so i got a few minutes....my son Bill leaves for iraq tomorrow(USMC)...had been delayed a couple weeks guess i got my hopes up that mebbe he wouldnt go....but he's excited and gung ho so oh well...
found my birth certificate tonite that i been searching for :)...yay me
in the process...i found some "writings" that ive done over the years....and ive always promised jan i would share them with her sometime....ive got lil slips of paper with musings on them from 25 or so years....a warning...most of them are quite somber if not depressing...so laugh, cry, smirk, do what you will but i never write unless im feeling something and at whatever time i wrote each thing its what i was feeling

state of the onion

ladies and gentlemen....the state of the onion is....cooked.....along with the taters and chicken....(dinner)

my son is back in Oki as of today....has to have his wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow before he ships to iraq supposedly on the 19th...he is still fired up to be goin...if yer interested he has a website..www.billbunce.com....wish i was as fired up as he is for this

when i was young...early 20's...i wanted a son so bad
to come home from work and have him run out and say daddyyyyyyyys home....play ball...go to movies...embarass him at school functions
in my vision i even had him becoming a Marine...guess cuz to me its one of the most brave and honorable things a person can do
well...all the other things came true not sure why i was suprised when he enlisted...no i was never in the military...didnt push him that direction....it sorta came outta the blue...but i supported him 100% cuz it got him outta the small pa town we're from and away from pumpin gas or worse yet.....being like me and workin my ass off every day climbin on roofs at 45......since he didnt want to go to school...even tho he's very bright and a computer genius pretty much
so yeah...the day he decided to join was a veritable plethora(love saying that) of emotions....i attended his swearing in in buffalo....went to graduation at parris island......he has been in okinawa for a few months and now to iraq with a probable stop in kuwait....again mixed emotions...very proud yet worried of course...try to rationalize by saying hey...theres stuff happening everywhere its dangerous no matter where he is....hell i live in a county with a higher per capita murder rate than new york city...so yeah my belief is if somethins gonna happen to you...its gonna happen no matter where or what yer doin
bill loves what he's doing at the moment...and he has got to ski in Nagano(olympics site)...bought a $500 handmade suit from a japanese tailor....he's not even 20 yet and has seen more of the world than i have...or prolly ever will....so i do still believe in what he's doing
even tho i didnt live with him the last few years of his high school....we are very close....feel like he is a part of me....in my "summer of discontent"(i had a real bad coupla years abusing myself and any alcohol or drug that came around)...there were times i didnt want to live any more....but the thought of bill and him being without a father like i was.....kept me going and most likely alive.....he is almost always in my thoughts in one way or another

i just worry

woooohoooooo saturday nite...saturday nite

ok so mebbe it wont be a "daily" chronicle...it will be when i have time
and on one of my typical wild saturday evenings...i have some free time...worked my butt off all day today if i was out partying id prolly be passed out by now....when i learn how ill post some pics of the addition im currently working on(help!! jan)....just saw that billy joel is gonna be at MCI center friday april 14th...id love to see that...wonder if jan could make it here for a couple days for that also(hint hint)...gotta purchase tickets for a couple nationals games soon too for mom and i.....prolly wait until its a lil warmer in june or somethin tho......feelin pretty good as ive lost 22 pounds since mid november....would like to lose mebbe 13 more or so
does it get any more random than this???
oh yeah it does
i love blueberry poptarts(frosted of course)

thank God ima country boy

new year.....new blog.....
small town Pa guy residing in wash dc.....you can take the boy outta the country but you cant take the country outta the boy

i hate pressure so im not gonna try and pressure myself into writing brilliant interesting or funny stuff....just gonna babble ...opinionate....and somewhat chronicle my daily activities and and thoughts

so here we go

welcome to bobs world